Old Garbage has a way of popping up…

It’s been a several years since I last talked to this stranger that messaged me on yahoo.  At first, I was like “Oh shit…”  But then I breathed, and decided to respond.  We had a past, at one time, and at first it seemed really bright, and then slowly but surely grew dimmer and dimmer.  I believed in love, and believed I was in love.  I was in love with the idea of being in love and in finding “the one”.  But as life has it, I wasn’t in love, I hadn’t found the one, and through the rough 10 months of dating, it all came to an end.  I was left with a broken heart (Or so I thought), academic suspension, loans, bills, ect. 

The next couple of months were hard.  I didn’t want to let him go, but I knew that it would never be what I imagined it to be.  And I was bitter, angry, pissed, hurt, depressed, and above all else fucking irritated that I had let myself get obsessed with the idea that he was the one for me.

Then, I met someone new.  He is amazing.  He was engaged at one point in his life, so we had a lot of baggage we talked about together.  We set boundaries, telling each other that we weren’t looking for anything too serious at the moment.  Which was fine for both of us!  But that “Not to serious” relationship became more serious than what we intended.  Found the love of my life, that’s for sure.  I can still remember when he first told me he loved me… So magical, and I was scared shitless. 

Not saying we have a perfect relationship, but it’s so much more healthy than the previous one.  I can talk, express myself, do what I want to do, and he’s okay with it.  We still argue, over some serious stuff, and over some not so serious stuff (My fault, I’m afraid :P), but I can’t see myself with anyone else.

Mind you, we did break up a few times, longest break was about a week I daresay.  Learning experiences.  People get afraid, do silly things.  It’s natural.  Makes things harder, but after a while you see what exactly happened.  Makes you take that step back, so you can really look at your relationship, and the other person involved.

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All of that, what you just read, came from a simple “Hola” From the stranger I hadn’t seen in years.   It’s amazing, how one word can make you realize what you have in life.

I love you, Andrew Carl Cornelius II, don’t you ever doubt that in you’re life.