I'm a little off of my rocker.

Life is crazy.

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Derp!  I can’t wait for my weekend to start!  I only have a four and a half hour shift today, so… This is good news.  :)  I love the feeling of knowing you have two days off, but then again it makes the rest of the day seem to go so slow, haha!  Until you get out of work, then it seems like those two days just fly by.

Still waiting on Baker to answer my question about how to send my transcripts to Davenport.    I want to go le now.  :P  Mkay I go make breakfast now :)

Well it’s been a while since I’ve last updated!  It’s funny how somedays I feel empowered to write, and other days I’m too lethargic to care.  Must mean I had nothing interesting or important to say! 

It has been quite the ride these last few weeks.  I’ve been at a war with myself it seems, trying to figure out ways to deal with stress.  For some unknown reason, I have decided to get stressed about every tiny little detail in my life, ranging from work to my relationships, to eye liner and money.  It all seems so pathetic and little for life to care about, but yet for some reason I can’t let it go.

I had a great talk with an old friend about how they handle their stress.  Regardless if I ever figure out a healthy way to deal with it, it was sure nice to hear that I am not the only one that has gone through this phase.  It makes me realize how I value other people’s opinions of me, even if in all honesty I do not give a fuck.  But, on the inside I know that as soon as that feeling passes, I’ll be right back at thinking I give a fuck until I can’t give no more fucks.  (Yeah I’m laughing at that phrase a bit :D)

I love my friends they are amazing and very dear to me.  I love my boyfriend too, he means the world.  And sometimes I lose site of that.  I get too wrapped up in the needs in life, and I forget about the ones that care about me.   Somehow I will have to figure out how to keep my priorities the same with out them changing.

I do not need to feel rushed in life.  I am turning 23 years old, there’s still time for me to live.  Breathe, just breathe!  :) ‘

Now on to politics:

A very good, facebook friend, (I shall call him, for I don’t see much of him outside of the internet posts) has been posting a lot of interesting articles about the government, and what exactly Obama has done these past years.  I know it’s election year from all of the back stabbing and hits against each of the candidates going on all over the place.  Which saddens me to think I live in a country where votes are mostly based on these “facts”.  This is where I think America is massively flawed, we base our opinions on people on their flaws and things they haven’t achieved in the past years, instead of listening to what they have to offer.  I know it’s much easier to shit talk some one versus coming up with their own unique and helpful ideas to help America and really focus on creating a better future for all of us.

This year, there are specific issues I have been really diving deeper into.  (Well I haven’t yet, but this is my list to start.) 

1.  Medicare.  I really am interested in hearing about the candidates views on what needs to be done.  From my facebook friend I have learned that in 2014 some new changes are coming up.  I’m hoping that Michigan decides to put that act into motion sooner, but we shall see.  I’m covered under my parents, but I’m more concerned about those who arn’t as lucky as I and have none.

2.  Student Loans/Funding.  Going back to school is my TOP priority right now.  And I’m having issues with coming up with the money to go back to school.  My past is my past, I’ve changed much since then, and I’d like to get my life started now.  I should not be judged about things that have happened so long ago, especially after I went through the necessary steps to get back on track.

3.  The environment.  I love Earth.  I don’t want to see it destroyed any more.  This includes what to do with oil.

4. Rights for ALL people.  I don’t care about the color of your skin, your sexual preferences.  What I do care is how you act as a person.  Be nice to me, and I’ll be nice to you.  Let’s give everyone the same rights as a married straight couple.

Well, that’s all for now! I wish you peace, Love <3, and happiness.  Have a great weekend :)

Well, only two days left in my work week, and boy am I excited.  I finally figured out how to hook up my brother’s old computer to his tv.  What does this mean for me?  Well I get to finally catch up on some much needed WoW time and also play Minecraft.  Yes, I am such a geek, but it is more than okay with me :)

I really hate waking up to a migraine.  It just sets the rest of the day up for, well failure.   I’m trying to get myself out of this groove. I’m making a bagel with my favorite type of cream cheese, coffee, and I took some pain reliever as well.  So hopefully my mood will change prior to starting my work day.

I’ve been having the vivid strange dreams lately.  I’ve had a dream every night since Monday.

I have applied to Davenport this morning.  *Breathes*  I’m not sure why I’m getting so stressed out about this.   Sometimes I wish I were the type of person who could be content with what they had.  Maybe that has something to do with knowing what you want in the first place.  It’s funny, looking back now, and how I’m just now starting to actually look deeper into different career choices.  Wasn’t I supposed to do this, gee, Senior Year of high school? It really amazes me how much I thought I knew my life was going to go.  And I was so certain of it, like nothing was going to stop me. 

Friends change too, some are hard to see go, and some aren’t so much.  You’re always meeting new people in life, and shaping who you are as you grow up.  It’s healthy to meet new people and make new friends.  Sometimes it feels as if friends can hold you back, because they don’t want to grow with you, or they grow in an opposite direction.  Sometimes we all just need to shut the fuck up and figure ourselves out.  I never would have imagined life as I live it now in high school.   And that just shows me how much I really didn’t know about life itself.

I’m at a point in my life where I need to make a decision.  I’m teetering on a choice between a Kid and an adult.  (Even though… we all know I should be grown up by now… Or at least well into figuring out what it means to be “grown up” haha)  My wants are changing for what I want out of life.  So let’s just see where it ends up taking us.  But the first step is to try.

I’m not that dependent woman.  I’ve never been her.  So it’s time for me to stop acting like it.

I wish you peace, love, and happiness <3

It’s been a little rough this past week, and now I start my work weekend haha.  I still have a sore throat from when I was sick, but whatever. 

My taxes are coming!! :) Tomorrow! Yay :D  Means I can pay off my bills, get new wind shield wipers, and finally go out and do something.  I originally was going to purchase a new computer, but now I’m not so sure if that’s what I should do right now.  I think I’ll think it over a bit.  I’d really like to go shopping and get some new clothes, since I’m in dire need of them!!

Well that’s all for now, I’m a bit groggily haha.  I wish you peace, Love <3, and happiness :)